It didn’t happen quite the way I expected it to. I thought when I truly fell in love for the first time it would be with a man. I thought that there would be fireworks (or at the very least candle light), wine and at some point a little voice whispering ‘he’s the one’.

Now I am no stranger to the love. Love has brushed, grazed, cut, broken, torn, touched, opened, lit up and healed my heart many times. But it was not until knees and nose, bowed down to the ground, with no escape – that I truly, with all my heart fell in love.

I don’t know if it was the exhaustion of completing four back to back intense training programs, or if it was simply my powerful female intuition demanding attention. But one night, for no reason, I turned everything off. I mean I literally turned off every phone, every radio, every computer, television and everything else that was capable of ringing, flashing, beeping or buzzing off. During the 45 minutes that I sat in complete stillness, my mind was flooded with all kinds of unfinished conversations, memories and fears. I could actually hear my brain interrupting, insisting and instructing me to do what I always do. Get up immediately, make a ‘to do’ list and schedule the time to do everything now. Well guess what? That night I decided to ignore my brain. Instinctively, I fell to my knees into child’s pose. And there in the dark, without any agenda, I simply let go. I stopped fighting.  I surrendered.

In the space of surrender I found the strength to enter destiny’s cave and face the rumblings of my ancestors. I heard the warrior call of my passion and the cries of purpose. I faced all that I had been hiding from, denying and trying to keep concealed. I released myself from the life sentence of shame that I for too long had carried with me every moment of everyday.

And when I opened my eyes, I knew that I was no longer the same woman. I went from being a woman with something to prove to being a woman with so much to offer.

The in the space of surrender I fell head over heels, deeply, madly, in love with myself. I became ready to treasure myself and (as result) others, with the same level of love, grace, compassion and undying commitment that the universe has for us all.

Surrender is what brought me here to you.

We all yearn to be loved for who we are and to give love freely. One thing to remember is that wherever we are stuck not being able to fully love or accept ourselves, that will always be the lid on how much we can love, receive love or accept others.

If you are feeling a little stuck in the love department, now may be a great time for you to practice the art of surrender. Put down the chocolate and turn off all devices. Turn the lights down low, sit quietly with your beautiful self, by your beautiful self. Resist the urge to listen to your brain (more than likely it wants to avoid this exercise). And allow your heart to take you to places you never dreamed possible.

Love Renee

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